There is a significant disconnect between my written voice and my actual voice.

This may be due to the fact that I work in the world of print media, where everything is proofed, edited and subject to scrupulation of my incredibly literate peers. So I feel somewhat safe in what I’m putting out into the world. I suppose you could say this has bred a bout of literary laziness. Importantly, the biggest influence on the intellectual clout of my communication is the length of time I have between when the thought is formed in my brain, and when it is communicated – either verbally or in writing. It takes time to properly phrase a thought in a way that gets your message across while adhering to the grammatical and social rules of the English language. I’m used to generally having quite a bit of time between thinking a thought and having someone read it.

I fear this has made me lazy, and has significantly detracted from my of the cuff ability. Just like trying to burp the alphabet after a decade of abstaining from the party trick may result in a pile of vomit, I fear that sitting on the communicative bench for so long will result in an inability to speak in a manner that conveys the notion of my being a human who was raised by other humans, not dogs (although those Darling children were effectively brought up by a Saint Bernard and they were pretty damn articulate).

Behind the filter of backspacing, thesaurus functions and the stern reprimand of the green squiggly line indicating I did grammar bad, there is the frightening reality of verbal incompetence (in my mind, I said “incontinence”, but because I have the luxury of time, I was able to correct the error equating my speaking ability to a constant accidental stream of piss – which, perhaps might be a more apt description).

I’m fine when leisurely pecking at the keyboard, however off the cuff is a complete disaster. When you suffer from the two extremes of thoughtful utterances – e.i. not thinking at all (which once led me to say “an elephant never forgets” when an extremely overweight teacher alluded to the fact that she would remember the actions of me and my friends as she was rousing on us) and over-thinking it so much you are paralysed by indecision – you’re going to have a bad time. I’ll either speak without thinking and end up using the term “yowse” (not actually a word and a bastardisation of the English tongue), or be nailing it halfway though my sentence until my mind is like “yeah, you’re killing this” with the internal fistpumping promptly re-railing my train of thought, causing me to screw up. Or, on the flipside, I won’t say anything because I’ve thought too long about what I’m going to say that my opportunity to speak passed three minutes ago. I also forget words, as having Google on hand to tell me the word for something you dig food with means you don’t really have to try too hard.

My brain was flabby, but I thought this may have had something to do with the fact that I haven’t spoken to people very much in the past month. Having moved some four hours away from friends, my only interactions outside of work were with the slow roundabout users – and even then, these conversations were only one-way.

So when my parents came to visit, I was thrilled to be able to once again engage in conversational pleasantries, testing myself to see how long it would take for me to sound like an idiot. After a few hours of catching up, we went to a pub for dinner. Being a legitimate grown-up big girl, I went to the bar to order a round of drinks, ordering a “Sex with Nate” upon the bartender’s suggestion.

When I went back to order food, the bar tender asked if I was enjoying the suggestively-named beverage. “I’m really enjoying it – it’s tingling on my lips and I can feel it deep inside of me,” I responded. Laughter ensued and my innards were celebrating, scratching another dash into my brain wall under the heading “conversational wins” – which, compared to the column beside it, was quite scant. But, true to form, my conversational high was followed by a plummet of grand proportions. I forgot the word for “mushroom”.

Daylight Savings is absolute hogwash.

This is not just another notch on the belt of “things that New South Wales does stupidly”, this is a pair of braces that have gone up so many notches that the wearer has a camel toe and a bleeding perineum.

It all started a few weeks ago – two, if my memory serves correctly, but because of the way this ridiculous concept has altered my cranial activity and concept of time, who knows! I was laying in bed on a Sunday, having just been awoken by the mysteriously sophisticated and unbelievably reliable timing of my body clock. I had a quick squiz at the time and was perplexed. “What the 6am?” I wondered to myself (well probably not word-for-word, because your thoughts are rarely formed in words, with sentences and correct syntax – they’re more conceptual and responsive. For example: *hears conversation about wedding rings* – brain replays that scene on The Simpsons when Bart and Lisa blow into their special red and white swirly whistle rings. *giggles to self* followed by a struggle to briefly summarise the scene and provide a verbal link as to why you thought of that… this may be a conversation for another time.) You see, I’ve been rising at around 7am, so for my body to automatically wake me up an hour earlier made very little sense. This made me think that perhaps I had been woken up by my bod to attend to other businesses than purely just being awake. Did I need to go to the bathroom? Had I forgotten someone’s birthday? Was there a ghost trying to entre my brain through my ear passage?

After a few minutes, I drifted back to sleep. I carried about my day as per usual. I went to the gym. I watched TV. I tried to shut out the sound of a baby magpie struggling for life in front of its clearly unimpressed parents. But something felt off. Then, when it was 6.30pm and the sun was still hanging about, it hit me. And it hit me hard.

Now, I’m nearly at the point of my word limit where I would start wrapping things up (or at least getting to the point), but I am far too enraged to be adhering to self-imposed limitations. I have things to say, dammit!

Daylight Savings is a foolish idea that makes very little sense. I hear people harping on about the extra hour of sunlight in the evenings, but people fail to mention that hour was robbed from the morning.

Now I don’t know about you, but one of the best things about the weather being warmer is that it becomes incredibly easy to get out of bed. And considering I had just moved to one of the chilliest places in the country, I was counting on the fact that heat would speed up my morning routine. But along comes Daylight Savings who effectively turns on the figurative atmospheric air conditioner and draws the shades so getting out of bed is akin to having your cervix scraped for medical reasons – you know you should do it, but it is wildly unpleasant so you end up putting it off.

Another thing that stinks about it is that you are ultimately living a meaningless lie for months at a time. One of the things I have always enjoyed about Summer, besides that pants become optional almost everywhere, is that you can be sitting around enjoying quality company and not-so-quality beverages and marvel that the sun is still glowing at 7pm. You can’t do that with Daylight Savings, because someone pushed the clock forward to make this happen. It’s like cheating on a test or creating fake profiles to comment nice things on your Insty selfies – you get the results you were after, but they have less substance than an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond (which, while I’m on a rant, why the shit is this show still on the air? Channel 11 should be Simpsons re-runs and nothing else). New South Wales is living a hollow, delusional existence.

But perhaps the worst thing about Daylight Savings is the changes in television scheduling. On the other side of the border, it had always been a nuisance – your zinger tweets would never feature on Q&A and you had to exercise constant vigilance if you wanted to confirm to Karl and Lisa that you do, indeed, wake up with Today. But last night, it was more than an irritating inconvenience – it was heartbreaking. Facebook and Snapchat were abuzz about Dumb and Dumber being aired on GO (apparently all my friends were staying in on a Saturday night, which does make me feel a little better about my lack of weekend plans), with the movie at the part when the pair is in Aspen, towards the pointy end of the film. I had been lying in bed when this was going on, so I leaded out of the covers to watch the dying minutes of the cinematic poetry of this pairing. But, alas, it had already wrapped up thanks to Daylight Savings. Instead, I was met with Yesman.

Expecting Dumb and Dumber and being faced with Yesman is like when I practically forced that work experience kid to watch Billy Madison only for him to report back that he liked I Now Pronounce you Chuck and Larry better – you have to summon all your power of restraint to not physically lash out and then implode into a ball of lost faith in humanity.

Sure, write this off as a trivial disgruntlement. Tell me that time is a mere illusion invented by the human mind. And that a second is just a word used so we can communicate a shared understanding of the concept of our elapsing existence and that I shouldn’t get so worked up about it. But years of sci-fi cartoons have taught us that tinkering with the fabric of time is dangerous and downright foolish, so with these New South Wales cowboys thinking they can play around with something as unifying as the way human measure their existence willy nilly, I am extremely unsettled.

Sometimes I worry that my subconscious makes me do ridiculous things just so I can get a good column out of it.

After just three days living in a new, much chillier, part of Australia, I had a classic clueless blow-in mishap. I acted on advice to park in the underground parking area of a well known store pedalling various goods at rock bottom prices (for the sake of disguising it, let’s just call it schmay-schamrt – at the moment this establishment is selling novelty cat socks for a dollar fifty so it’s in your best interests to work it out!), which unbeknownst to me, locks up of an evening. Not just some shaky security guard who is counting down the days to his retirement draping a chain across the exit, but sturdy rolladoors, bolted window caging and sternly-worded signage aimed at deterring robbers and unsavoury folk. There was no sneaking in there.

So when I returned to my sweet ride, I was fairly unhappy.

Luckily, I was out having a dirty pub feed with my new colleagues and one kind soul offered to pick me up for work the next day once we realised my automobile had been inCARcerated (Yes, I DO I feel like Jesus after that ripper play on words).

The next day I was picked up as promised, however there was already a passenger in the front seat. As I buckled up, names were exchanged. But you generally follow up an exchange of names with more words unless you’re wearing a Bogart-style fedora and trying to establish that this will be a tense relationship.

I found out that it is slightly awkward trying to talk to someone when an ergonomically-correct configuration of foam and steel is creating a physical barrier between you and the subject of your attempt at conversation. The seat creates a barrier more difficult to overcome than a simple cradle of upright comfort and safety; it creates a conversational barrier. In the world of communication research, we would call this noise (I think, but just go with it – I mean there wasn’t much actual content we had to memorise in COMU, but the communication models made up about 70% of that. And COMU and/or JOUR students didn’t go to uni because they could learn facts, but because they could pull things out of their arse and manage to pass these nuggets of confusion off as knowledge). “Noise” is what prevents the message from being interpreted by the receiver as the sender intended (yeah, that truly complex notion took me four years to learn. No wonder my tertiary institution has effectively labelled my degree as worthless by proposing to discontinue it). Noise can be literal noise – such as the sound of a foghorn or an irate crowd bellowing abuse at a 16-year-old referee – or it can be the distracting fact that the sender spat while speaking, that the receiver has “hey there, blimpy boy” stuck in his head, or the sender’s thick bogan accent. Essentially, noise can be almost anything in this context.

In the context of my car meeting, the car seat was a noise so loud it was deafening. When I first meet someone, I like to establish the fact that I am equal to a male, so I do what the menfolk do: extend my open hand for a firm and brief, but meaningful handshake. Unfortunately when you attempt to pull off a manoeuvre like this in the close confines of an automobile, it can be quite tricky. The verbal greeting was followed up by an uncomfortable few seconds of trying to meet each other’s hands and failing – kind of like when you’re walking in the path of another person, and you both try to dodge each other by going the same way and then there’s that awkward dance-laugh you both do before scurrying away to deny to yourself what just happened. Except I didn’t scurry off to bury my shame in my internal quicksand of repressed memories – not yet anyway.

I decided that, given the handshake was out of the question, I would pat the man on the head. Now, clearly my subconscious was looking for another Dannielle-humiliates-herself-again story because I deemed it appropriate to PAT A COMPLETE STRANGER ON THE HEAD. The worst part is that I didn’t even debate whether this type of contact would be well received, or even make any sense. I instinctively reached over the head rest to fondle this poor guy’s skull cap. It was like my brain had thought about this situation in advance and prepared a Plan B option to revert to in the case of a disallowed handshake, and it was very, very drunk at the time.

The move was met with silence as we drove onwards. I sat there completely nonchalant about the whole exchange, thinking that I’d just nailed another encounter with a human. I was almost proud of myself. It wasn’t until about two minutes later that I realised what a huge mistake I had made. I am glad the head-petted stranger was riding shotgun, because the expression my face upon this realisation would have been quite confronting had it been visible to the other occupants of the vehicle.

I got out of the car in a daze, stunned by what had just transpired. I like to think that normally, I wouldn’t find replicating the way you interact with a dog as a suitable means of establishing warm feelings between myself and a stranger. So surely something in my brain was fishing for column fodder. No one can be that bad at people, can they?

I’m having unnatural feelings towards a piece of plastic.

Yesterday I went to change my licence from Queensland to New South Wales. It sounds like a mildly irritating visit to the Department of Transport, but really it’s like denouncing your religion in order to join a cult. This simple administrative task is the equivalent to shaving my head, burning my clothes and pulling on hessian underwear.

I didn’t think that moving states would be such a punch in the guts. On my first visit, I remember thinking that if there was some kind of impending natural disaster in which all humanity was doomed, I would hope into my noble Camry and speed towards the boarder. I wouldn’t be having pre-marital intercourse on the roof of a school building or eating seven different types of pie while setting off fireworks, I would be encased in a slightly dented metallic blue capsule all by myself, but I would be happy, because I would be in my home state. Like a seagull flying out to the ocean, I would go out to that sunny wilderness to die.

I know I’m generally quite a morbid person (I get a real kick out of checking the funeral notices – and that’s not just because I once saw an actual Theresa Green AND a Frank Grimes, although it helps), but this is pretty extreme. It might have something to do with the licence plates. As much as I hate the bogan-esque “8 in a Row” slogan plates, they sure are comforting. “The Sunshine State” reminds me that paradise is home, and “The Smart State” makes me glow with misplaced pride of my supposed intellect. More importantly, they just make aesthetic sense. Maroon or green text with a white background complements any vehicle. But the bright yellow plate with black text instantly turns a sweet ride into a crapwagon. If adorned by such grotesque physical notifications of registration, my beloved Nancy (who also goes by “The Chariot” and “that big family car parked askew AND 20 metres away from the kerb”) would go from a fine automobile to straight-up seedy. While I was driving, I ended up behind a fellow Queensland plate and happily fluctuated from 100 to 85 kilometres an hour just to feel like I was back home again. I’d only been in the state for an hour.

After being in this patch of land longer than a mere 60 minutes, more things have rubbed me the wrong way. For one, the newsreaders are different. The slick guy on the 7.30 Report is now a woman – and while I’m all for sisters doing it for themselves (both the movement and the hit track), I grew accustomed to the fellow’s sweeping side part. The Nine Network is now called NBN, which feels like a copyright violation. Channel 10 put Mike effing Munro behind a news desk for the sake of these people. Those twinkling eyes belong on a set with a grossly over-sized book, not delivering glum bulletins about robberies. The lottery signage is also very disappointing. Two colours in the place of an actual rainbow is severely underwhelming. And the police officers don’t seem like they’d be as friendly. They don’t seem like the type of guys who would make inappropriate jokes while you’re trying to blow into the breath tester or give you a ride home from the local show in the back of the patrol vehicle because you’re too drunk and cold to walk. I have yet to actually have a conversation with a police officer (touch wood), but that’s not the point. This place is unpleasantly foreign. Sure, the supermarkets here may have bottle shops attached to them, but that kind of thrilling convenience just doesn’t make up for familiarity.

So when I was sitting in line at the Department of Something To Do With Roads Communicated In A More Annoying Way, I was quite unimpressed – and not just by the guy behind the counter who was wearing P.E teacher sunglasses on his head at 4 in the afternoon (he’d obviously been wearing them all day, despite the fact that he doesn’t need to be shielded from the sun at his 9-5 desk job). At the time, I was pretty crank that I had to walk to the bank, notify them of my change of address and get them to print out a statement with said address to present to the licence bestowing lady, and was even more grumpy when I was told that information from Queensland was needed before my licence could be granted.

But in hindsight, I am glad that I have one last weekend with that yellow plastic rectangle affirming my affiliation with a superior patch of land. It’s going to be an emotional 48 hours.